The World signals completion
It’s the final tarot card of the Major Arcana and signals the completion of the Fool’s journey….
Things have been going very awry in my life over the couple of weeks. I’ve been feeling ‘off’ for want of a better word. Dissatisfied with myself and where I am in life. Specifically dissatisfied by my behaviour and almost despairing about how I can’t seem to resist showing my impatience (again for want of a better word) and the push pull around friendship. Needy and then critical. Asking myself how can I change. Yesterday I was completely thrown out of kilter by a misunderstanding (on my part I am assured) that has me reeling. Am I losing my memory, how could I have got something so wrong? And I didn’t appreciate being spoken over either!
Anyway feeling quite vulnerable I decided to ask the tarot for reflection card and I pulled The World.
The World, final card in the Major Arcana.
The first thing I always say about this card, is look at the woman in the middle of the card, encircled by the wreath of success, this is a moment when she understands she is enough, she is complete and the centre of her world without being overly dependent on anything else for her sense of completion. Not work, friends, family, children, achievements etc. Although supported by the four elements in the corners of the card but not dependent.
The next thing I say is, the World is the final card of the major arcana and signals a moment of completion, fulfilment, perfection. You’ve come full circle. And then you start all over again with the first card of the major arcana the Fool.
Oh how I hope for the Fool. A brand new journey.
As I looked at the card I thought well I certainly don’t feel enough, whole, complete.
Perhaps this is more about completions. And being at the end of a cycle.
In which case, my dilemma is, what do I need to complete? Or perhaps the question is what cycle is completing and what needs to be let go? The final letting go of things/people/habits!! that don’t serve a new cycle? And that I should take note of what’s not working and consider it a sign??
I had a lovely conversation with a brilliant coach Susie Doscher who was actually present at one of my ‘off’ moments. She reminded me that there’s a price to pay for being social, for belonging to a friendship group, for fitting in, there is a consequence (rather than a price) to social engagement, an interaction with a certain friend, there’s a potential downside as well as up, and with that take into consideration where we have to give, accept, let go. As not to do so is only going to lead to disappointment and in my case the likelihood of showing said disappointment and being unpleasant leading to confrontation! And then spending days hating myself for being sharp tongued and ungenerous! And pushing people away!!!
Oh dear. So frustrating.
Her advice was, Sue you are going through something, sit with it…
All this, after just finishing our latest book club book ‘The Let Them Theory’. Boy do I need to ‘let them and let me’! I shall translate ‘Let me’ to mean return home to myself. And if the World has anything to say about it….. where I am enough, I am complete, without needing the rest of the world to say so! HA :-)
Do come and have a tarot reading with me in Battersea or online. Online is just as effective and enjoyable, we’ve all become so relaxed meeting on whatsapp, and besides what’s going on with the cards is in the airwaves anyway.