I finally decided to google the meaning of dreams about ‘packing a suitcase and finding it impossible’! They are so stressful, in them I can’t decide what to pack, can’t fit everything in, things are everywhere and panic rises as I run out of time and am going to miss my flight. Quite often it is to New York. Or from New York.

Google said typically this kind of dream represents

· anxiety about missing opportunities

· fear of being unprepared for future changes

· feeling overwhelmed by responsibilities

The secret to stopping recurring dreams according to Google is to connect them to a real life situation and address the real life situation head on.

Well New York always reminds me of my break up with Jerry. Which was 40 years ago! So should be resolved! Surely?

Last week’s didn’t include New York so that’s good. So is there an anxiety that needs addressing? I could think of a few things from different areas of my life?

Friendships….yes a couple of relationships need care. Future unpreparedness?…..everything seems to be going along well enough…with a slight question about whether I’m pushing myself enough/going in the right direction tarot wise. Too much responsibility/to do/going on?……juggling Airbnb with the island with tarot and tennis and health/fitness…..plus social life…? Perhaps.

and on reflection I can see there is a lurking anxiety around what ‘should’ be my focus? Especially with the last few blogs all being about crossing a threshold to the next season. Is now a moment of decision. Is that what the dreams are referring to, is that where there is a fear of missing out, of not being prepared for the opportunity of a new cycle.

I thought I might see what the Tarot has to say…..

And I got THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE……CHANGE! Jump into the Wheel of fortune to active change for the ‘good’. Don’t get stuck. Turn the Wheel. Embrace change.

I needed a clarification card…the SEVEN OF PENTACLES ……I always read this as, you’ve achieved a lot…..now is not the time to give up, now’s the time for persistence, you are heading in the right direction. Pentacles very much refers to work and practical matters, rather than emotions, or even new inspiration, it seems to refer to what I have already achieved/invested my energy in.

7 of pentacles tarot card — Don’t give up now. It will be worth it….

So I pulled an Advice/best course of action card…THE EIGHT OF PENTACLES. Keep working away, keep honing your skills, do the boring stuff, commitment, dedication to perfecting your craft.

eight of pentacles tarot card — keep up the good work!

So I guess I am being told don’t sit on your laurels, there’s more skill to be learned. Keep working it!

A thought that immediately came to mind, I was doing some clearing a couple of days ago and I came across the piece of paper I wrote on my 70th birthday….that by my 75th I wanted to achieve

Living by the sea

Becoming well respect tarot healer

Writing a book

Having great sex.

The latter two are unachieved. The first two achieved with much gratitude and room for improvement obvs!!

I shall ponder on this over the next few days….Is there a book in me? I do love writing! Shall I keep combining blogs with illustrations/mind map style? Is it a tarot workbook?

JUMP into the Wheel of Fortune to affect Change! OK!

Or, (the day after posting this blog) is the Wheel of fortune referring to the change of habits I have been making in September and saying this is not the time to give up, keep on going and honing those ‘self improvement’ habits??? The eight of pentacles never strikes me as exciting. It could well be that!

And prompted to read my last few blogs, of course it’s about that. Doh already had Wheel of fortune and the 8 of pentacles. Talk about the tarot having to bash me over the head with it!

Do come and have a tarot reading with me in person in Battersea or online. It would be my pleasure and honour. I’d also like to say if you are looking for a reader who just tells you your future and what you should do don’t come to me.

A. I dont have the skill to do so, I am not clairvoyant or a fortune teller.

B. as you see in my blogs, there’s lots of different things a card can mean and it is how it lands with you that counts. And often it takes some conversation between us, some noodling, or even there isn’t clarity during the reading but it comes later, just as my 8 of pentacles has done for me!

C. So come and have a tarot reading if you, like me, believe we are instrumental in creating our future and that it is in the way we think, feel and act, and the choices we make that gives us agency and enables US to create the life we desire.

Tarot to follow your dreams

Feelings versus words in a tarot reading

Keep up the good habits!