I finally decided to google what dreams about packing a suitcase and finding it impossible mean? They are so stressful, in them I can’t decide what to pack, can’t fit everything in, things are everywhere and panic rises as run out of time and am going to miss my flight. Quite often it is to New York. Or from New York.

Google said typically this kind of dream represents

· anxiety about missing opportunities

· fear of being unprepared for future changes

· feeling overwhelmed by responsibilities

The secret to stopping recurring dreams is to connect them, says Google, to a real life situation and address the real life situation head on.

Well New York always reminds me of my break up with Jerry. Which was 40 years ago! So should be resolved! Surely?

Last week’s didn’t include New York so that’s good. Still is there an anxiety that needs addressing? I could think of a few things from different areas of my life?

Friendship concerns?….yes a couple of relationships need care. Future unpreparedness?…..everything seems to be going along well enough…with a slight question about whether I’m pushing myself enough tarot wise? Too much responsibility/to do/going on?……juggling Airbnb with the island with tarot and tennis and health/fitness…..plus social life…?

On reflection I can see there is a lurking anxiety about what ‘should’ be my focus? Especially with the last few blogs all being about crossing a threshold to the next season/cycle. Is now a moment of decision. Is that what the dreams are referring to, is that where there is a fear of missing out, of not being prepared, of juggling too many things

I thought I might see what the Tarot has to say…..

And I got THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE……CHANGE! Jump into the Wheel of fortune to active change for the ‘good’. Don’t get stuck. Turn the Wheel.

I needed a clarification card…the SEVEN OF PENTACLES ……I always read this is, you’ve achieved a lot…..now is not the time to give up, now’s the time for persistence, you are heading in the right direction. Pentacles very much refers to work, rather than emotions, or even new inspiration, it seems to refer to what I have already achieved/invested my energy.

7 of pentacles tarot card — Don’t give up now. It will be worth it….

So I pulled an Advice/best course of action card…THE EIGHT OF PENTACLES. Keep working away, keep honing your skills, do the boring stuff, commitment, dedication to perfecting your craft.

eight of pentacles tarot card — keep up the good work!

So I guess I am being told don’t sit on your laurels, there’s more skill to be learned. Keep working it!

A thought occurred also, I was doing some clearing a couple of days ago and I came across the piece of paper I wrote on my 70th birthday….that by my 75th I wanted to achieve

Living by the sea

Becoming well respect tarot healer

Writing a book

Having great sex.

The latter two are unachieved. The first two achieved with much gratitude and room for improvement obvs!!

I shall ponder on this over the next few days….Is there a book in me? I do love writing! Shall I keep combining blogs with illustrations/mind map style? Is it a tarot workbook?

JUMP into the Wheel of Fortune to affect Change! OK!

Do come and have a tarot reading with me in person in Battersea or online. It would be my pleasure and honour.

Tarot to follow your dreams

Keep up the good habits!